Should I Letting you go again?

I've come to realize that one of the biggest mistakes I've made is making you a priority in my life, even though I was never a priority in yours. It's a hard pill to swallow, acknowledging that the energy I poured into our relationship was not reciprocated. I hoped, maybe naively, that you would make the same effort, show the same care, and meet me halfway. But time and time again, I was left waiting, hoping for something that never came.

In relationships, we often tell ourselves that love is about giving without expecting anything in return. But there's a fine line between selfless love and losing yourself in the process. I crossed that line when I started prioritizing you over my own well-being, my own needs, and my own happiness. It was a mistake to believe that if I just tried harder, if I just gave more, you would eventually do the same.

But the hardest truth to face is that my biggest mistake wasn't just making you a priority or hoping for more—it was letting you back into my life after all the signs showed that you wouldn't change. I let myself down, allowed myself to be vulnerable, and in doing so, I gave you the power to hurt me again. I convinced myself that things would be different this time, that maybe you had changed, or that perhaps I could endure whatever came my way as long as I had you.

But now, I see that my mistake was not just in letting you back in, but in ignoring my instincts, in silencing the voice inside that told me I deserved better. I allowed myself to believe in the possibility of change when all the evidence pointed to the contrary.

Letting you in again was my way of holding onto hope, of clinging to the idea that love could conquer all. But love alone isn't enough if it's not shared equally, if it's not a two-way street. My mistake was in thinking that my love could fill the void of what you couldn't give, that my efforts would somehow inspire you to meet me where I stood.

I now understand that self-worth isn't measured by how much we can give, but by how much we value ourselves in the process. I made the mistake of undervaluing myself by overvaluing you, and that's a lesson I won't soon forget.

So, should I move forward? should I letting go of the need to prioritize anyone who doesn't see my worth? should I letting go of the hope that someone else will change to meet my needs? Instead, I'm choosing to prioritize myself, to make the effort to love myself in the way I wanted you to love me. And that's a lesson worth holding onto.